Hi.
ok, it's a sad day again yaaa.
Idk why i still miss you when we've broke like going one month le.
I feel so stupid to slit myself. Like srsly la. For someone who doesn't even bother and care about me. what for? But, it's beyond my control too.
Come put yourself in my shoes. What if everyday the memories are haunting you? What if you miss someone until you couldn't even talk to them but only stalks their profile to see how they are going on. Those feelings. sucks, right? What if you read all the past happy messages and now in a sad and pathetic state? What if you see someone you like, like other people? Do you even know the terrible feelings? N-O.
People say guys are jerks and bastards. But it might be not. Bcos, in every relationship, it's girls are the one that put in the most effort even though the guy was the one who loved her first. And plus, i think you dk this. I've though of asking you fr patch. It's like wtf right a girl ask for guy for patch. IT'S ALSO MY FIRST TIME WANTING TO. But.. i though twice and i didn't asked.. Thinking back all those times when you first like me and i said i don't believe you but you still proved to me and you've done a lot for me. Oh, i miss those times of you. Seriously. You never failed to me there for me and cheered me up. Remember the photo you edited right. I still keep it. I'll always keep memories of us. thou we're partially together for only a short moment. But a lot memories thou. I also kept the movie ticket that we first went to watch alone. You're the guy tht done a lot for me and the guy that i done a lot for, for the first time. Cried, slit, pinch myself all i've done. So yaa. I still misses you thou you don't even give a fucking damn to me anymore. Why am I so stupid? Idk either. Maybe love is blind. Or maybe i'm too good to be bullied? Who knows. I'm such a idiot. K, maybe i rely on you too much. I need to learn to be independence for now. I've been relying you since like April when you first like me. It's like 4 months.. Suddenly the person that i used to complain my things, tell my secrets and everything, cheer me up when i'm down, dote me, love me, miss me suddenly gone... Pathetic life huh? I don't even wish to live. I'm just living for my parents. Bcos i still need to takecare of them..
k whatever. I type so much you also wouldn't care and wouldn't even see. cos idw let you know & you also won't do anything what. ._. I'M SO STUPID AND IDIOT. FUCK MYSELF SCREW MYSELF FOR BEING SO IDIOT. I JUST WISH TO DIE. &, I just hope I could be used to it without your texts... I needa be strong without you. I need to independence ALONE now. No one will be there for me. From now, i'm a loner. :)


One day, i hope you'll think back about us and regret what you had done for letting me go and letting our memories go.. Bcos, you wouldn't be able to find such a stupid girl like me for doing so much silly things for you.. Goodbye & takecare, boy.