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Hi,
I'm here to update.
You know, my mood sucks a lot a lot. Sometimes, i feel like crying & run away from house. But where can I go? No where. Sigh. /: Home is nothing to me. It's just a place for me to sleep. Family are ignoring me. Fck care lah.
Like no one will be there for me. Family? Nah. Friends? All busy. I only want him to be there for me actually. /: I'll be contented. :) .
So i'm rotting down here. Want to cry, but i control. hm.
Family going out to eat. and me? At home eating maggie. Pathetic right? Can i like run home? Sigh. Fuck my life very much. Who will be there for me? will you?
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Anyway, zc ah zc. you cheer up too! Why like sad sad like that. Like worrying you know? :/. Smile please. Don't sad. Anything share with me leh, don't keep it alone to yourself. I can't promise i'll help you with your problems, but I'll promise you i'll be there for you & lend you my listening ears whenever you need okie? :).
And, don't blame yrself anymore hao bu hao? Is I myself want to accompany you not your fault. ppl miss you ma! Haha. So, stop blaming yrself. If not next time i see you, you die. ;)
SMILE PLEASE MY DEAR. :) .
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k, ending with one song. I guess this song suits my mood now. /: .


xoxo.

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Delication to someone you know who you're. -winkwinkz-
If you realized 31th's which is in a few hours will be our 8th months, IF ONLY WE DIDN'T BROKE UP. /: how i wish we didn't broke.
Time flies right? :/
And in like 1 day and a few more hours will be feb and also it will be the 8th months that i'm loving youuuuuuuu. yes you. :) .
Ok, to be honest. It's my first time waiting for a guy so long & i don't mind waiting any longer cos people say if the person is worth for, it's worth waiting no matter how long. Cos I know, the person I want is only you and nobody else. No negative answer please. :( .
I still rememeber the very first time you talk to me @ fb! Haha. You keep say your chat got problem dhen keep on & off dhen can't see me online and you text me instead, that's the first time we started texting. :b.
Haha. Yeah, texting you everyday had been a habit to me alr. But sometimes we didn't text cos we aren't so close yet that time. And that point of moment, I didn't know you'll be so so damn damn important to me. Fuck myself. I rlly hate myself. I regretted a lot alot. /:. i know i'm very gl that time! :/ .
Okay, I'm glad that you can tolerate my attitude. hehe. though sometimes we got like small arguement but cfm ok one. :p.
Yeah and soon go army le sibo! Wa, someone name SherylNxh will miss you sia. :/
Imagine, I everyday spam you till siao siao when you sleeping le. Imagine we can't text for one day = i'll die & let you see. /: .
And my birthay you at army. T_T? Sad die.
Yah, you might forgot every sec memories we'd. But let me tell you, i'll never forget. I promise. & i'll keep my promise. Please don't say you are afraid that we'll be like last time. You never give yourself another chance, you never know. It's like giving up without trying. Who knows what'll happen in future. 我会难心等待。 只要是你，一切都是值得的。
Ohyeah, to be honest. You know why I scare you'll ignore me one day? It's because last time when we broke up, you ignored me. Remember? I'm fcking sad. That's why. It's like, once bitter twice shy. :x. Scary ok!
And hell fuck you, stop telling me there's better guys outside. -__-
I only want you. GET IT? And there's only ONE AND ONLY YOU. No one can replace you. GET IT BABI?!?!?!? :@.
Ok, i admit. I'm jealous that people who get to see you everyday, i'm jealous girls who get to talk to you. Yes, i just jealous easily. and that's me.

Anyway, i post this not to let you see how sad am I etc, is just that I miss the date 31th's & mainly, you. Yeahs.


xoxo.

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Hi, it's 11:36pm and i'm here blogging. :) .
Fuck my mood siah. Gosh.
I'm turning crazy haha omg no work for 2 weeks = no money. :(
Tmr going out with Jh bby go lan with her!
haha so long no go out with her alrdy!
Yay, bro going camp = house peace = (y).
Haha.
Sian, why am I missing someone nowwwwwwwwww? Like now? Omg.
Like hi can you see i'm blogging about you?!?!?
I don't think so :( .
Do you still stalk my bloggggggggggggg? >:O
I don't think so either.
Sigh, k bye.

; Ignore my swollen eyes. T.T
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Hello, today is a moody friday.
My mood is rlly rlly sucks today.
No matter what, it just can't cheer me up. Nothing and no one can.
Sigh, rotting at home like nobody's business like that.
Fuck, I find myself annoying and like a irritating only. Don't you think so? Ohk, fuck myself. I really want to die and i'm aren't kidding. I don't rlly scare "die" now. Cos, everything is meaningless. :) .
Idk why I'd turned into this state which is in a crazy woman state and will do foolish things any moment.
Woke up at 3am and cry? Fuck? Do you think this is what i want? I just want a peaceful+happy life and ______. Sigh, forget it.
I'm so dizzy and sleepy now and so blur. drunk uh sial.
And i feel that i'm so not myself today.
Eh hi to myself. Am I sheryl hihihi ? Or shall i cut myself to see whether it's pain anot so i know whether i'm Sheryl? Lolllllllllllllll.
Haha. ok can. I shall stop here................


In a few days, it's 31th's again. So, what should I do on that sad day? Sigh. FUCK IT OK.
youyou, yes you.
Do you know imyyyy? When the fuck can i get to see you again. >:(

Hi.
Fml. I feel like crying. zz.
Idk why, i'm getting emotional and hurting myself. Fuck siah. i think i'm crazy. Lol. Fuck my life. Fuck my mood. Fuck everything.
Ok, i'm rotting at home. Actually meeting one asshole but....... as usual he put me areoplane again. Ah, used to it anyway. Not the first time. Plus the weather is like playing a joke. Rain. Bitch.
Idk why today's mood is fucking screw. i've no mood to do anything i swear. Like anytime will do something foolish. Fuck lah. -.-
Sigh. I want to cry. Alone. Forever alone. I want to be alone. I'm a loner. k bye.


I finally waited for Friday to see you, but in the end, I still don't get to see you.. Sigh.

Hi!
Today didn't went sch, sick. :(
and part of reason is idw go zoo LOL!
Haha, slept in the noon for 4 hours and now i'm still sleepy.
Fml, got sch till 4 plus tmr.
I'm fucking jealous of someone la horrrrrrrrrrrrr. Fuckyou. :@ HAHAHAH. if he see i'll be whacked LOL. :/
Don't care la. :p.
Wa shag, school kills me. Can someone kill me? Or i kill myself sua lah. Don't care. Fml. I'm fucking tired and you still want me go sch? Kidding me? I'm patient please. :@
ok la enough of nonsense.
enddddddd.

If that pig happen to see my blog, i want to tell you. I WANT TO CHOP U :@. HAHA. :) i don't think u'll see this!! so heng :p
y u no go work!!! y!?!?!? You no go work ltr u ............... LEH. HAHA, idw tell you. bye!!! :)

xoxo.

Hi!
Sch was okay today. Super slack. :)
Sch ended at 10. Met mama at lot for breakfast dhen bought my polariod! <3. $139 fly. :( Sigh, but i wanted that for very long! So yeah, went home around 1 plus!! - Hmm, you. This pig. you know who you're. :p . Don't shag alrdy lah. :/ Smileeeeeeeee. :D I'm always here for you 24/7. Just text me lah. :) you also won't auto text me de lah hor. >:(
Kay lah kay, anything just talk to me!! I'm a joker lai de will make you laugh like mad de though i'm quite failure in making people laugh. :/
SO SMILE PLEASEE. :>
yay see you on fri. Heehee. :$

xoxo.

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Hihihi!
Sch as usual today. Till 10 plus only!
And actually i'm meeting some pig but dhen hor boooooooooooo la he. :b
Haha ok, there's work tmr sian!!!
Oh yeah Sunday working same place with this pigggggg. Song or what? HAHA.
Eh fuck, I'm so bored here. Editing my blogskins thing woohoo~
It's a cold cold night~ Hehehehe. Okay can byebye! :D